| Two thousand and Ten |
[Jan. 5th, 2010|04:16 am] |
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| |  anxious | ] |
I shouldn't be up this late writing this. But god dammit I can't sleep, my head is filled with too many thoughts, so maybe I'll feel relieved once I spill them out.
It's amazing how much I've been pushing myself forward and forward. Even after these two weeks, when I went back to school today (well technically yesterday...)I felt so pulled back, like I don't belong there. Well, I never felt that I belonged there but it was a bit different, it's... difficult to explain. Which is stupid because I still have this and the next semester left, so hopefully next semester will be fresher.
I really don't know how to describe how I feel right now. Torn? I suppose. I guess I feel that I ditched the path I was forcing myself through and turned to the pick-black path to god-knows where. Not because it was easier or logical, because it sparked my curiousity. My life schedule is already falling apart. I can't sleep at night anymore. Last night I only got one hour of sleep, and tonight I'll also be getting less than three. I'm already starting to act or think illogically and irrationally to situations where I should. Even my desires, goals and accomplishments are starting to warp. Maybe I'm starting to shift as a person? Whether this change leads to my prosperity or my inevitable demise, I'll just have to see.
Before you ask... I too have no idea what I'm fucking talking about.
Well... uh happy New Year? |
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| Writer's Block: Toy story |
[Jan. 4th, 2010|09:50 pm] |
Ah, nothing quite like starting off the new year with a little childhood nostalgia.. I can't really say I had one toy that was my all time favorite, but I can list- well okay, except Rocky... but I can list a few that I'll never forget...
( Cut for length and pictures. )
Sadly, none of the toys I grew up with are in my possession today, but each one is a treasured memory that I can always- except Rocky.. ...who needs to go back to his shelf and quit breathing on my back while I'm typing this.. ...thank you.. but each one is a treasured memory that I can always look back on and smile. I think I speak for just about everybody my age when I say that my generation grew up with the best toys ever. |
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| woooo woo shhhh whaaa |
[Jan. 3rd, 2010|04:56 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  uncomfortable | ] |
| [ | music |
| | squeeze - up the junction | ] |
I am emotionally unstable right now for several reasons:
1. Lack of sleep
2. I have been sick for two weeks
3. I haven't seen Jonas in a few days
4. My routine was severely disrupted by the holidays
5. It's coming up on shark week
I really like "shark week" as a euphemism for menstruation. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 31st, 2009|07:49 pm] |
ESFP - "Entertainer". Radiates attractive warmth and optimism. Smooth, witty, charming, clever. Fun to be with. Very generous. 8.5% of the total population.
Extroverted (E) 62.86% Introverted (I) 37.14%
Sensing (S) 56.1% Intuitive (N) 43.9%
Feeling (F) 55% Thinking (T) 45%
Perceiving (P) 68.42% Judging (J) 31.58% |
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| last.fm countdown |
[Dec. 31st, 2009|11:23 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  calm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | cousteau - the last good day of the year | ] |
My most listened to bands of the yearrrr!
10. The Beatles
They are always on this list.
9. Of Montreal
Same as The Beatles, always on this list.
8. The Divine Comedy
A big thanks to Michael for this one. He gave me a homemade two-disc compilation, and I love it. How did I live without Neil Hannon before this past year?
7. Neutral Milk Hotel
Another big surprise.
6. Old 97's
I think at this point I can consider them another classic favorite band.
5. Harry Nilsson
Love him! I started listening to him a lot at the beginning of 2009, and when I got hired at Record Time and played Nilsson Schmilsson on my turn, Michael was like "OMG WHO PLAYED THIS" and gave me a high five. One of my favorite moments from before we got together.
4. Scissor Sisters
Still as fun as ever. Love.
3. Sparks
I think they are officially my favorite band at this point. Previously I listened to Kimono My House almost exclusively, but Propanganda's just as good, and their earlier stuff, and their new stuff, and oh my god SPARKS.
2. XTC
How can I explain how much I love XTC? I listened to Skylarking a lot in 2005 but got more into them this year because they are Michael's favorite band, and he introduced me to some more albums. Drums and Wires, Apple Venus Volume 1, and NONSUCH. Oh, Nonsuch.
1. Nellie McKay
That's my girl! I LOVE YOU NELLIE. |
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| so long |
[Dec. 30th, 2009|12:10 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  drained | ] |
| [ | music |
| | cousteau - one good reason | ] |
I'm selling my computer!
Don't worry, e-palz. This will not affect our time together one bit. You see, I haven't had internet access in my house in like three years. I've never had internet on my computer, mostly because I just got it last year and never used it. I can't afford internet anytime soon either, so why keep something that's just sitting there?
Michael's work computer exploded (not really) yesterday, so I figure, why not help out? He took it with him today, and it works great. I am happy to help.
P.S. I have had hives since Friday and it's really starting to bug me! And my son is sick. And there's a hole in my ceiling. WTF, life. Oh well. |
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| chicken broth + tomato sauce + pasta = <3333333 |
[Dec. 28th, 2009|04:58 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  confused | ] |
Just a few months ago, I had the idea in mind that my life would stay the same, and that I have predicted what my future is going to be and it was never going to really change.
Now, I realize, even now everything is starting to change.
I also realize that trying to plan out my future sucks. What I want now may not be what I want in the future, so trying to force myself down that path will just lead to my disappointment. Therefore, I guess it's okay that I don't know where I want to be in the future.
So, I'm not going to worry about the future too much right now, just the present. |
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